Hey Artsy peeps! Welcome back to my blog. It is true yes, I am currently screwed at the moment. Here’s what’s going down. For years, I have struggled with my laptop. In the beginning, I did my research on laptops and what would be good for YouTube and video editing but could also use for Etsy sales at shows. I went with the Yoga Lenovo. I really do love this laptop however, I didn’t take into consideration of the GB or how much storage I was really going to need as I became more serious. I just didn’t know any better. I’ve had my channel since 2013 and did a couple of videos since then. But 2016 was really when I became committed. Buying the laptop, I went ahead and downloaded free video editing programs like windows movie making. Which helped me create this little video intro lol

Learning so much, I went ahead and jumped up a tier buying adobe premiere elements. As soon as I bought the program, I started to notice red flags happening. I didn’t really know what was going on or why my computer was not allowing me to download the program. Clearing some space, I was able to download the program. By then, I couldn’t return my laptop. For the next 4 years, I’ve been having to transfer files to a hard drive just to clear space or cut projects in half, transfer it, and do the other half. When I do time-lapse art videos, some recorded videos on my camera are about 30 mins long each. So most of the videos on my memory card wont even let me download onto my computer until some space is cleared. Its extremely frustrating and time consuming. Forget about working on multiple projects. I’ve tried uninstalling program I don’t use but the problem is that some programs I can’t uninstall. It’s just part of the laptop. I uninstalled my premiere elements thinking I be able to install it again. In doing so, because is was an older version from 2016, I was not able to download it again. Since then, I’ve been wanting to add different graphics and do some serious video editing. Animation is also something I want to bring to the channel as well. I now have premiere pro which has now completely taken over my laptop. I can’t work on anything with my laptop. I have cleared out everything and uninstalled everything I could. I can’t save projects let alone download anything. In this current moment, I have come to realize that I have outgrown my laptop. I no longer need training wheels. If I want to became serious with this, I need to get something with some serious storage. Maybe this is giving me a chance to take a little bit of a break from video editing and YouTube. Start to focus more on resting, having fun, meeting new people, and exploring some places. I’ve had my share of all work and no play for the past four years since growing my business. I haven’t been mentally happy in a long time. I need to learn how to add more balance of working hard but also enjoying this life, receiving, and staying present with my work too. Don’t get me wrong, I love being a YouTube artist and enjoying the growth of it all however, It has created this go go go mentality and not getting out of the house. Creating mental exhaustion. I have learned so much since becoming a YouTube artists but that’s a whole other blog article in the near future. In the mean time, I will be researching some desktops and writing a new manifestation list to buying a computer. I’ll continue to keep record videos, building inventory, and journaling new video Ideas as well. I am not giving up just a little set back. I will still be posting videos and art on my Instagram page. So you can follow me on Instagram if you choose too which is VisualFeelsInsta. I’ll keep you guy updated. Thank you so much for stopping by artsy peep!!